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2006-11-28T19:46:00.000-08:00

haiz

screw this, i've only wanted to do 2 things in the entire 18 years and u decide to screw it up

2006-10-10T21:42:00.000-07:00

some times i wonder why am i talking less

shutting out everything

i have no one to turn to

i'm sick of tired of keeping everything inside me.

2006-10-06T07:23:00.000-07:00

what other things can you do other than talking nonsence

do you think i don't give a fuck about my life?

stop assuming things about me and my friends if you don't know anything about them

and one more thing, ur incessant "advice" isn't going to get you anywhere

its just screwing up my life

2006-10-03T22:55:00.000-07:00

Am i happy?

why do i feel alone everytime?

what should life be about?

why are tears falling from my eyes at night?

2006-09-27T02:49:00.000-07:00

haiz

life feels so empty

why am i doing all this?

2006-08-10T08:00:00.000-07:00

haiz, i feel so empty

sometimes i wonder why am i doing this

i hate school, but why am i trying to score?

seriously, just fuck off

its my life and who are u to care

understand more about me before shouting around like a mad dog

fuck

2006-07-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

this is fucked up

6 years... 6 years of effort, all gone in a single moment

nothing left to remember, except the pain, the disappointment

life sux

just fuck it

zomg?

2006-06-26T19:42:00.000-07:00

zomg?

i still remember my blog's password

zzz

mid SDBA feelings

2005-03-14T05:38:00.000-08:00

okay..... hectic weekend... managed to survive the 3 days of being under the sun..

so.. i'm in the semifinals... dunno why but i dun think i really performed well that day... co-ordination was like fuck... haix... muz haf been pretty lucky haha

haha heard that our class wasn't really enthu during the fac nite... aiyah... sorry for not being there.. really too tired nia.....

ah well, muz start doing hw liao.... and prepare for saturday's semis

haix

SDBA comp

2005-03-06T05:49:00.000-08:00

wah sian diao...... k2 1000 open cat.. i'm gonna get thrashed by ppl from dunno where... nayang poly, ntu, nus and even the national team. perhapes i'll even get beaten by my juniors.... argh.. tt would be the ultimate humiliation T_T

dunno sia... 5 heats for that event would mean that there would be 3 semis.

maybe i can get into the semis and hopefully......HOPEFULLY... the finals, or maybe even a medal! Bah, i'm thinking too much..

haix, maybe i shud screw this comp, and train harder for nats, then i would have better chance at that elusive medal.... haha

anyway, feeling crap for not attend talenttime...

zzzz, muz stop now, muz study for that crap chem quiz which i didn't noe about until 1 hour ago.... dammit

sumthin funny

2005-02-16T07:18:00.000-08:00

hmm... i feel funny now, like sumthin's missing from part of me... i dunno bout it.. maybe its canoeing, haven been going for training for the past week, kinda hate missing trainings, esp when SDBA competition is so close..... aiyah, last training to miss b4 being able to go again.

haix, the feeling of sumthin missing, haven been feeling it for quite a while, i kinda enjoy canoeing, the feeling of weightlessness, wind blowing against u and the cooling water splashing onto ur body. maybe its time i push myself more, can't get into first team at my current lv of fitness.... muz train harder after this week...

O lv results releasing soon.... can't be bother to be scared, cos what's the point of being so? its over already... ur grades are determined....

shud be enjoying this last few days..

all out for SDBA

sum late entry...

2005-02-05T07:39:00.000-08:00

haha, khai lin's b'day in 20 mins? (pardon me if i'm wrong) so happy b'day to her, not sure if she sees this, but nvm

econs project went okay ... managed to finish 1 essay question out of the 2... quite okay la, cept was brain dead after that, played halo2 on mark's xbox, got thrashed 23-2. the difference a bit big hor... nvm la.. first time playing... haha.

hmm.. nuthin much... drama feste rehersal was pretty okay... fiddling wif the lights was fun, but most of the time it was pretty boring... sitting at the control room looking at the play, toking cock to mark... dunno la. sounds pretty boring.... haha

ah, dunno wad to write.....

ego shatter-er

2005-02-02T04:51:00.000-08:00

lol, training today was simply one to bruise ur ego..... dammit, chongren and roger in k1, and my stupid rotten partner not here...... got thrashed like shit.... sibei pek chek lose to chongren by at least 5-6 boat lengths in 1k....... cry liao la

haix bo bian la... tt's wad happens when u dun train enuff...

another day in sch, with the same teachers.... cept that i can pon GP tomolo due to dramafeste! yay

bah

2005-02-01T05:12:00.000-08:00

crap... just got disconnected from a DotA game.... feeling slightly pissed off.... haix, can't help it, this comp isn't really the best anyway....

bah... my life's kinda boring... everyday, going to sch, listening to teachers go on and on on different things, its sufficient to drive anybody mad.... and sch ends so late.. heard cjc ends at 2pm almost everyday....

saw a show on tv mobile.. showed a couple adopting a HIV-positive child.. made me think.. would anyone that i noe do this, to give this child joy, laughter and fun for his short life, or shun him, fear, despise him for the unwanted disease in him...

amazing at how the world brands ppl......

3rd revival lol

2005-01-31T06:45:00.000-08:00

well, i felt like bloggin, so here's the third revived blog....

ah well, previos experiences have told me that blogs created by me dun really last long, hope this time it lasts much longer.....

nonetheless, my mundane life has nuthin worth to be mentioned, other than an exhausting training today....

ah well, first posts aren't that long anyway....